There was a girl who fall in love to a man and hasn’t changed since.

He is her sunshine

She has no exact reason of her feeling.

She just knows that she trust him.

She knows that he is not worth it to fight for

But she ain’t interested in looking for anybody else either

She meets so many other people in her life

But she knows that she will be only happy with him.

Everyday is a struggle for her

She works so hard let herself overwhelmed with her jobs

But it is always him whom she thinks before her sleep

She travels and does her daily activities like nothing happen

But it is always him whom she thinks the first time she wakes up every morning

She meets so many people

But she knows it is only him whom she could trust in this world.

Nobody knows it’s killing her to not hearing anything about him.

But she just doesn’t really think about it.

She loves her career

She loves her childhood dream.

But she doesn’t want to leave him either

She sometimes thinks move away just to get close with him

She knows it will all be worth it to reach her happiness

She knows that she will be so devastated if she knows that he has moved on with other person

She doesn’t know what to do now

She thinks she will wait for him

But maybe she won’t

It’s been a year

And she hasn’t changed a thing

It’s all because of her trust

She could say anything, do anything

But deep down, she knows she only trust him in this world

And she hasn’t found any reason to move on 

This is the first I ever seen my ex getting married. My other 3 exboyfriends haven’t been married yet.

The feeling is kinda weird. Because in the past, he is the person you thought you end up being married with. Because he was a very nice and genuine at that time. But now, he end up married with someone else. And the weirdest feeling of all is you saw how he end up marrying someone else.

But do I feel sad? Not at all. In fact, I feel exactly the otherwise.

I feel so happy for him. At the very least, it’s better he’s with his previous girlfriend. Because (I’m gonna be very honest about this) his previous girlfriend was very mean and hurted him so bad. Although he already gave her everything he’s got. What a waste for my ex.

But now, he’s with different girl. I didn’t knew this girl before coz he never introduce her before to me. Because we haven’t met since like several months or so. Nevertheless, I really hope this girl is a nice girl who can give him happiness.

I did attend their wedding. Because my ex and I are still friends. The only thing separate us is time and place (of work). He’s one of the best ex-boyfriend I ever had (beside my last ex. Because my other two ex-boyfriends are such a childish people trying to block any contact with me as their exgirlfriends bla bla..). Of course I would come to his wedding and wish him all happiness ever after.

What’s next?

I’ve been thinking all this time, that he will be one of committee at my wedding one day :) (I chose him based on his experience as wedding committee)

A good man who deserve you is someone who will be nice to you, not when he loves you, but when you two already break-up

And I’ve just found out one who does

:)

The thing is, I am currently under distress because of high work pressure. And recently, I just got a bad news.

So, rather than complaining on the things I hate about, I changed my focus on the things I love most recently, which are:

1. Ravin Kumar. Hohohoho. My current boyfriend

2. the fact that my dream to publish my thesis as a book will be realized soon, supported by my ex-thesis advisor.

3. the fact that I am gonna work with my ex-thesis advisor, who happen to be the best boss I have ever working with.

Therefore, if I post any cheesy post, it’s actually a manifestation of my love on those three things. It’s the way I try to focus my attention to them.

It’s better than I vent out my anger here, right?

Cheer up always, self ! :)

It just occurred in my mind.

Probably I miss my home.

Probably I miss you.

Probably I need you.

Probably you are meant for me.

Probably I just can’t live apart from you.

Probably I can’t live without you.

Probably you are my everything.

Thanks for reminding me of my greatest love of all, and how I have abundant love to share with everyone especially him.

Love love love !

you must be strong because they’ll always tell the truth, including hard-truth.

They are not trained to be liar.

They are trained to think too simple that they believe that telling the truth eventhough ugly is always the best thing to do.

Good thing is, when they say good things about you, or when they say they love you, you know they are being honest about it :)

its about how every person has their own way to show their love