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Nostalgia: Emotions from Undergraduate Thesis in 2011

Couple of days ago, I accidentally open softcopy file of my undergraduate thesis. And it remind me of all emotions I had when writing that thing: all the pain, all the heartaches, all the spirit, all the pride, all the tears, all the laugh, all the love, and so on and so on. Because it was reflected in my writing

Hereby, I would like to share all those emotions. 

(if the images below are too small, you can go to the bottom of this post, point your mouse to the post box, and when you see the time information below this post box, click it. It will be opened in a new page)

This is the front page of my thesis:

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This is the statement of anti-plagiarism or that sort of thing:

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Me and my thesis advisor are very proud of this thesis. This is her statement: 

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Most students write a very short and mainstream introduction part. But not for me. I transfer all my emotions while writing this thesis into a-two-page-of-introduction. This is a glimpse of my introduction:

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This is a glimpse of my thank you note: 

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This is the thesis abstract (in English):

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This is the result of my research. FYI, this chart is not taken from a book or internet. This is the chart that I made my own based on my research findings:

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And this, is not the theory from a book or internet. This is the theory I made my own on my thesis.

Yes, I created a theory from my thesis:

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Gosh I should go back to research world

As an Indonesian living abroad, and with limited Bahasa Indonesia skills, I appreciate your post about the elections! I'm trying to keep up with the latest news but it's been quite challenging. Anyway, I chose Jokowi too - like you said, he's not perfect, but Prabowo's human rights track record scares the hell out of me. Again, thanks for the post! :)
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Hi ! It’s nice to meet you online ! Im thankful that you appreciate my post. Yeah nobody is perfect, but question is who open the door for people contribution, including Indonesians who live abroad, to build the nation together„ right ? :))

Indonesia Presidential Election 2014: Getting Smarter !

Usually, at the moment of election, I will write my analysis about all candidates and everything happened during campaign period which come up into a result of whom I choose. I will try to do at again this time, but with more careful because at this moment I’m working for President’s Delivery Unit for Development Monitoring and Oversight, which require to be neutral from political activities.

At nowaday’s election, I realize that I’m getting smarter and smarter. And I hope everybody else do as well. It is more obvious for me when a media favor one candidate over the other. They always talk about the favored candidate anytime anywhere when they have a chance. And the words they used to describe all candidates also shows. Well actually it’s either they’re getting dumber by being not as smooth as it used to be, or I’m getting smarter.

On the last presidential election (2009), I couldn’t care less about the Presidential Candidates debate held by Election Commission on TV. And I even didn’t know whom to choose, so I went to ballot box but didn’t choose anyone. But 2014 is different. I now care about the election. I’m not freak who do deep research about both candidates, but at least I’m trying to find out more about the vision and mission from both candidates, one of which by watching the debate held by Election Commission on TV. Not only that, I read newspaper (although I do suspect newspaper and magazine that I read favor one candidate secretly) and also analyze track record of both candidates.

I am actually pretty dissapointed of both candidates. They are not the best Presidential candidates for me. I already have preference, although it is more based on my hatred to one candidate rather than favoritism to another candidate. Because I choose the lesser evil in the end.

I’m 23 years old and this is the second year after my bachelor degree graduation. I’m, and apparently most of fellow youngster around me, realize that at this level of nationhood, 69 years after country’s independence, we should have the mindset that "whoever the President is, we should contribute to build our together". Question now is: who opens the door for people contribution as much as it should be ?

There is this one good article written by my senior in debate team back in my university: 

https://m.facebook.com/notes/melanie-tedja/kalau-pendukung-jokowi-mau-jujur/10152210158341314/?refsrc=https%3A%2F%2Fm.facebook.com%2Fnotes%2Fmelanie-tedja%2Fkalau-pendukung-jokowi-mau-jujur%2F10152210158341314%2F&refid=9&_rdr#_=_

I should inform you first that she is fellow debaters who is very critical and not take for granted both candidates just like that. At least, she is smarter than me la.

From her writing, we can see that both candidates are not perfect. All of them (Presidential candidates and Vice Presidential candidates) has their own track record and none of them are smooth. None of them are angel. But one candidate open the door for people contribution to help the government build the country, while another candidate (as I predict) will be very bossy, close themselves from people contribution let alone critics, because they think they are the best person in the country.

When we talk about law supremacy, it is clear to me that one Vice Presidential candidate has a very bad track record when his son commit to an accident that kill a person, now the case vanish just like that. Don’t you think it is very obvious that it must be because of his help as a Minister to close the case ? Thus I strike him off from my list because how can I trust law affirmation in the hand of people who use their political power to manipulate law ?

Of all 5 candidates debate on TV, there is one debate that grip my attention which is the debate on the issue of International Politics and National Resilience, simply because that’s the issue I’m expertise at. Other debate are too political for me and too tiring. But on the issue I’m expertise at, I can see who knows nothing but open himself for some lessons, and who already have a glimpse of knowledge but went underperform. (please read my review about the International Politics and National Resilience debate on: http://froyolava.tumblr.com/post/90233823343). And of course I prefer person who start zero but open himself for inputs to make him smarter.

As a supporter of human rights and feminism movement, what option that I have ? Yes one candidate stumbled on this issue because of a not-beautiful-history he has done in the past. But as my senior pointed out on her writing above, we don’t know which story is true and which is wrong. It’s too much and too tiring for us. And when we go back to the question “who opens the door for people contribution as much as it should be ?”, it’s more than obvious that human rights movement will be affirmed and get more space under presidency of another candidate. Because the candidate who has a not-beautiful-history in the area of human rights will be reluctant to support human rights movement as it will be obstacle for his political career.

I will choose someone who put themselves on my shoes. I will choose someone who knows how it feels like to fight for daily living, not someone who can get everything easily as he wishes on his daily life because he has limitless resources (by this I mean money). I will choose someone who wants to limit his power to feel how hard the life of other people “below” him, so that he can make perfect policy which favor marginalized people. I mean, how can you trust the building of better mass transportation system on the hand of someone who use private jet and helicopter to go everywhere ?

And lastly, as pescetarian, I will not choose the candidate who on the 5th Presidential and Vice Presidential candidates debate said they will multiply the number of livestock for the sake of food resilience. Because it shows that they don’t realize that there are still some unsolved cases of animal abuse in the food processing. And of course they put more and more people into health risk as red meat and chemically-compromised white meat are dangerous.

Therefore in the end, I vote for one candidate over another. It doesn’t matter who you choose in the end, whether it is the same with me or not, but we must getting smarter.

Realization from the last Presidential Candidates debate about International Politics and National Resilience

Disclaimer: This writing is not written by a person who defend one side over another. This writing is written by a person who appreciate human intelligence.

The third presidential candidates debate was the most exciting debate for me as it match with my educational background. Seeing that debate and this campaign team debate has strucked me with some realization.

Lemme introduce you to my lecturer Andi Widjajanto at this video (standing at the side of Jokowi-JK). He’s an expert at international relations studies with concentration on security studies. I never took his class back in my uni because I took concentration on transnational civil society studies. People from transnational civil society studies often see people from security studies as prioritize country over people, heartless, also evil and shallow-minded. And as someone who has passion in transnational civil society studies, I do regret the fact that both presidential candidates only emphasize on security and economic aspect of international politics during the last debate. Although Mas Andi on the campaign team debate claimed that Jokowi already emphasized on people-to-people relations during presidential candidates debate, I didn’t see it clearly. I only see the people-to-people relations aspect brought by Jokowi on the issue of Indonesian migrant workers, and that’s it. Even in that issue, what Jokowi emphasized was Indonesian position as a country and didn’t brought up the issue of people participation.

But seeing this campaign team debate, I never thought that Mas Andi could be that smart and awesome ! I remember my lecturer / academic sister once said that Ministry of Foreign Affairs (MoFA) must act to defend and represent the nation. Thus the focus is on the country not on the people. Because that’s MoFA’s job at the first place. And I think that’s the position of Jokowi and Prabowo at the previous debate. Because they will represent the country not as their personal but as the country’s leader. And topic of the debate was national resilience anyway, so….

Anyway, I heard some people underestimated Jokowi before the debate because they thought Prabowo will have an upper-hand when it comes to security issue. Seriously if you ever underestimate Jokowi at international security issue, you clearly don’t know who’s behind Jokowi’s back. 

Seeing this campaign team debate, it is also clear that Tantowi Yahya doesn’t comprehend the substance and has only good public speaking skill. I am ironically amazed by his ability to stay confident when he face someone whose skill is up above him thousand times.

And I learnt so much from Mas Andi’s style on how to negate someone stupid without getting too emotional and in the end humiliate ourselves. I admire his gesture, his voice tone, his confident, his serenity throughout the debate, and of course the fact that he comprehend the issue 100%. These two debates refresh my mind with international relations studies again, and it made me realize that I have to go back to where I belong, international relations world.

Mental war : Another form of “glass ceiling”

You maybe ever heard of “glass ceiling”. It’s the phenomena where most women can’t reach higher position or level in the career because of some limitation and discrimination. Why we call it “glass” because the limitation is sometimes unseen and unrecognizable. But it’s totally a thing, although not all women face it.

Based on my experience of three years in working field, I recognize another form of glass ceiling aside from underestimation of women capability due to wrong stereotype. That is what I call as “mental war”.

In the mental war, men will trying to put you (women) down by mocking you and saying bad things about you. They will try so hard to make you believe that you are bad, ugly, unworthy. They will also try to convince you to believe that your condition and your life are that bad and nothing in this world could ever make it better.

Why women is the victim here ? And why it is a form of glass ceiling? Because we care so much about ourselves, about people around us, and about what people think about us. And in the work field, if we already lose our confident, our performance will drop and it will hinder us from reaching higher step in our career. Maybe, it’s their intention anyway because men are (naturally) so terrified of losing from us (in all aspects).

They will claim to you that they are joking. They will say that you are their best friend so they are comfortable to talk or say anything to you. But your true friends will support you, make you feel good about yourself, appreciate your being in whatever condition of yourself, and direct you to do the right thing. They will not make you feel bad, put you down, and drag you down even further.

So yes, believe them not. Leave them behind. They can’t move on their life because their shallow-minded just focus on the surface, on the looks. While truth be told, that your perseverance and dedication is what makes you success in the end. So yes, dress up and act politely to respect other people whom you will meet. But focus more on that will bring you to success. And if they say that you are in bad condition, don’t believe them. They are not God who know everything about you and predict the future. They are just outsider who doesn’t know your true strength to move the mountain. Believe me that you are fine and everything is (or will be) fine.

Afterall,

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Because at the end of the day, respect is not earned by how pretty or handsome you are, how well you dress up or how tall the heels u are wearing in the office. Respect is earned by how well you treat others. How you treat your inferior is a test that will determine how many respect you’ll earn, and frankly how many friends you’ll get. Your look gets (only) attention, but your manner and personality win the heart.

My interns are so sweet like diabetes… They wouldn’t do this if I am ever being “bossy”, would they ? Will your interns do this to you ? 😏

Because at the end of the day, respect is not earned by how pretty or handsome you are, how well you dress up or how tall the heels u are wearing in the office. Respect is earned by how well you treat others. How you treat your inferior is a test that will determine how many respect you’ll earn, and frankly how many friends you’ll get. Your look gets (only) attention, but your manner and personality win the heart.

My interns are so sweet like diabetes… They wouldn’t do this if I am ever being “bossy”, would they ? Will your interns do this to you ? 😏

I am average girl living in a big city. But I aint living an easy life in which can get anything that I want only by asking to my parents. I work hard and struggle to get what I want since I was kid, and failed many times. So I am raised to be tough by my own.

I am so sick lately with some shallow-minded people who judge my life as miserable for being alone. 
Yes, my life ain’t easy. But there no shame in my life. Because I work hard to sustain the living of my family. Because I (and my sister) are their only hope to survive. I live with abnormal burden for a 23 y.o. girl. And if I ever, ever, need any help, I still have abundant number of friends who back me up. 

Maybe they judge me because they wouldn’t survive if they ever be in my position: to be the breadwinner of their family. Maybe they judge me because they are not able to stand on their own feet and they’re in desperate need of others’ company. Maybe they judge me because they don’t have friends who always be on their side. 


In that case, shame on their life. (at Jakarta, Indonesia)

I am average girl living in a big city. But I aint living an easy life in which can get anything that I want only by asking to my parents. I work hard and struggle to get what I want since I was kid, and failed many times. So I am raised to be tough by my own.

I am so sick lately with some shallow-minded people who judge my life as miserable for being alone.
Yes, my life ain’t easy. But there no shame in my life. Because I work hard to sustain the living of my family. Because I (and my sister) are their only hope to survive. I live with abnormal burden for a 23 y.o. girl. And if I ever, ever, need any help, I still have abundant number of friends who back me up.

Maybe they judge me because they wouldn’t survive if they ever be in my position: to be the breadwinner of their family. Maybe they judge me because they are not able to stand on their own feet and they’re in desperate need of others’ company. Maybe they judge me because they don’t have friends who always be on their side.
In that case, shame on their life. (at Jakarta, Indonesia)

So this is how it feels like

Ever since I broke up with my last bf, there is one thing I fear most. Is to see him with another woman. For a year and several months, my fear never came into reality. Until now.

I see now with another girl. I always thought that I am over him coz I have a crush on another guy. But I was wrong. 

The thing is, he is now happier with this girl rather then he was with me. Because eventhough this girl share the same origin and religion with me, he doesn’t hesitate to post some pics of her on social media. Something he didn’t do with me because he’s afraid that his family would know out relationship. I now keep thinking: was I that bad (in all aspects) even until he’s ashamed of me ? Was I that bad compare to this new girl ? Was I not enough for him ?

I thought I was over with him because I have a crush on another guy. Some people who know my story says that I am in love. Deep one. Which I don’t really believe. Yes I keep thinking about him all day and night. But the news about my ex breaks my heart, I must say. 

Is it simply jealousy ? Is it simply guilty feeling ? Is it simply the feeling of getting lost in a competition of life ?

So this is how it feels like to finally face my fear. But I rather not to think about it further. I know that no matter my ex is, he’s not the right guy for me. At least for now. And whatever he does there, doesn’t hurt me even a little. I’m still fine and I am always be fine. After all, I deserve someone who wants me the same as or more than I want them.

It was a tough week in the office for a feminist: the hard truth about perverts in Indonesia’s UKP4 office

Gw gak ngerti kenapa banyak sekali orang shallow-minded dan perverts di dunia ini, bahkan di kantor Unit Kerja Presiden (as if di luar aja gak cukup banyak). Dan minggu ini memang tough banget untuk seorang feminist yang selalu punya high-expectation di dunia ini.

Pertama, gw denger kabar mengenai kejadian yang membuat tidak nyaman (bahasa ini sudah sangat gw perhalus. Kalau gw pakai bahasa yang sebenarnya, I would say it was sexual assault) seorang junior gw di kantor. Intinya sih, dia digodain (disuitin / catcalls) oleh cecunguk kantor (either OB or penjaga kantor. those people in low position lah). Dan kejadian ini bukan pertama kali terjadi di kantor. Beberapa kali sebelumnya, cecunguk di kantor gw sering duduk di tangga yang mengarah ke lantai dimana gw dan junior gw ini bekerja, sambil terkadang “sok” ngajak ngobrol gak penting kami para perempuan yang lewat. Keberadaan mereka yang duduk-duduk (bahkan tiduran) di tangga ini sangat membuat tidak nyaman kami perempuan yang sering menggunakan rok ke kantor. Masalah ini sudah diselesaikan ketika seorang dari high official menulis masalah ini di milis kantor yang akhirnya diketahui semua orang.

Tapi gw kesel banget denger kejadian ini terulang lagi di kantor. Emang ya cecunguk di kantor gw ini (untungnya beberapa) perlu diajarin manner dan attitude banget. Karena gw pun dulu ketika baru bekerja di kantor ini mengalami kejadian dimana gw digodain sama salah seorang cecunguk, walau gak parah sampe disuitin. But itu dulu sangat tidak nyaman sekali bagi gw. At that time gw gak punya siapa-siapa karena kebanyakan rekan kerja gw (yang deket) adalah laki-laki yang (sudah gw coba) pastinya meremehkan hal-hal ini (sekarang sih jumlah perempuan sudah semakin banyak di kantor. Waktu dulu yang gw lakukan adalah take stand untuk “melawan” cecunguk ini. Caranya ? Setiap dia lewat, gw pelototin, gw jutekin. Kalau ada dia di pantry saat gw mau ambil barang, gw cuma bilang “Misi” dengan nada jutek. Sampe sekarang, ini orang gak berani lagi sama gw. Another story bahkan menimpa cowok, cuma bukan sexual harrassment. Temen cowok gw yang saat itu baru-baru masuk kantor, pernah diteriakin gak jelas gitu sama salah satu cecunguk (yang gw yakin salah satu yang ngegodain junior gw itu sekarang). Rekan cowok gw itu langsung nyamperin cecunguknya dan nanya ada masalah apa. Ya cecunguknya cuma mesem-mesem lah pas di-confront

Bahkan gw juga baru tau kalo junior gw ini pernah gak sengaja ketemu sama para cecunguk pas jalan ke stasiun dari kantor. Sepanjang jalan, cecunguk ini membuat junior gw gak nyaman dengan nanya2 rumah dimana, dan bahkan nyecer gitu nanyanya. Gw kaget banget denger hal ini, karena sebelumnya junior gw belum pernah cerita ke gw.

Gw tau kalo gw aman dari hal-hal macam itu di kantor saat ini karena pembawaan gw yang keras dan jelas intimidating bagi para cecunguk. Tapi bukan berarti junior gw yang pembawannya manis ini bisa dijadikan sasaran sexual assault, kan ?

Kebetulan, gw adalah salah satu orang di kantor yang dipercaya untuk jadi “tempat sampah” bagi hampir semua orang. Termasuk junior gw ini, yang udah gw anggep adek sendiri dan dia udah anggep gw kakak sendiri. Kebetulan juga gw ini feminis. Jadi junior gw ini percayakan keluh kesah dia ke gw. Dan gw sebagai perempuan merasa punya kepentingan untuk fix things right. Ya positifnya, ini adalah ajang latihan bagi gw untuk mengadvokasi kepentingan para perempuan di tengah-tengah dunia maskulinitas (again, masculine is not a good word).

So apa yang gw lakukan ? Advokasi sana sini agar ada high officials yang ngomong ke Kepala Sekretariat (yang mengurusi hal-hal administratif di kantor) untuk ngasih “pelajaran” manner ke para cecunguk ? Bisa aja. Tapi gw tau kalo gw gegabah, posisi lobi gw dan para kaum perempuan di kantor akan melemah. Gw gak bisa memperlihatkan diri gw sebagai seorang emosional dan membesar-besarkan hal kecil (walau buat gw ini bukan hal yang kecil) otherwise suara gw gak akan didenger. Apalagi, dulu juga pernah ada kejadian makanan gw dicuri dua hari berturut-turut di malam hari di saat sudah tidak ada orang lagi di kantor, yang membuat gw kesel dan langsung ngomong ke Kepala Sekretariat. Saat itu reaksi mereka  ? “Mungkin tikus Mbak, karena tikus banyak di kantor ini”. Ya keleus deh gw tau tikus gak mungkin ngegondol roti gede-gede begitu. Yang ada tikus ngegigit doang. Gw tau jugalah orang di rumah gw banyak tikus. Intinya, orang-orang di sekretariat kantor gak peduli sama hal-hal menyangkut keamanan dan kenyamanan macam ini.

Gw pun mendiskusikan solusi dengan salah seorang rekan kerja perempuan yang lebih dewasa dan kebetulan sama-sama feminis. Kami setuju untuk tidak ngomong dulu ke siapa-siapa mengenai masalah ini, tapi kita perkuat posisi dan pembawaan diri junior gw ini. Kenapa kami belum mau berniat mengadvokasi masalah ini ke high officials ? Karena alasan kami, jangan sampe kami memperlemah posisi lobi kaum perempuan karena terlihat emosional. Like it or not, kami hidup ditengah-tengah dunia maskulin yang even if it’s neutral, tetap saja banyak kepentingan sana sini. Kami juga sepakat untuk belum mau cerita ke rekan-rekan kantor lain yang kebanyakan adalah laki-laki (gw baru sadar) karena we can’t expect much from boys. Mereka gw yakin yang ada malah akan ngeremehin cerita kita. Dan truth be told bahwa kami adalah orang-orang yang lebih dipercaya para junior (bahkan dari tim lain) untuk menceritakan keluh kesah mereka di kantor. Karena para lelaki kantor tidak memiliki ikatan emosional dengan mereka, bahkan ada juga yang treat mereka seperti babu.

Tapi junior gw bisa belajar untuk jadi tough, yang juga akan menjadi amunisi untuk perlindungan diri (baik itu dari sexual harrassment maupun kriminalitas pada umumnya). Lumayan kan ? Gw ajarkan dia untuk berani “nantangin” para cecunguk yang pernah gangguin mereka jika ketemu mereka atau bahkan jika mereka cuma sekedar lewat. Apalagi jika mereka sampe berani ngegodain lagi.

Gw tau pendekatan ini (pendekatan ke sisi perempuan) tidak akan menyelesaikan masalah sexual harrassment atau sexual assault dalam jangka panjang. Karena semua masalah bersumber dari otak perverts para cowok, dan yang harusnya di-training untuk mengendalikan pikiran dan perilaku. Tapi this is the best thing we can do for now. Hitung-hitung untuk amunisi kami para perempuan. Biar saja mereka yang rugi. Tapi kita sudah susun strategi in case ini terulang lagi (untuk sekian kalinya). So, they better watch out.

Udah selesai ceritanya ? I wish. But no.

Kasus kedua menimpa gw sayangnya. Kalaupun tidak dapat disebut menimpa, bisa dibilang gw jadi saksi mata hidupnya.

Cowok-cowok itu emang orientasinya fisik pake banget. Bahkan cowok-cowok yang katanya terpelajar. Gw melihat sendiri beberapa rekan kerja cowok di kantor gw mencari informasi di social media (bahasa lainnya - Kepo) mengenai beberapa pelamar internship perempuan yang kebetulan fisiknya sesuai dengan standar kecantikan mainstream. Gw udah gak bisa ngomong apa-apa lagi saat itu karena sebelumnya gw pernah confront salah satu dari mereka (yang gw anggap paling dekat dengan gw, dan kebetulan sudah punya istri dan anak) dengan menanyakan “kok bisa sih lo naksir sama cewek lain, muji-muji cewek lain di saat lo masih punya istri ?” Ya tipikal cowok pada umumnya, mereka akan bilang “gw tetap cinta istri/pasangan gw. Itu cuma muji aja. Dan pasang gw juga oke-oke aja.” Pret.

Gw udah ngomong sekali sama dia. Terserah dia sih ya maunya gimana. Cuma kalo dia bawa-bawa gw, males dong gw ya…Karena pada saat mereka kepo-in pelamar internship itu, si rekan cowok gw gini mengeluarkan statement “iya kan cantik gak kayak Prili”.

Duh gw udah eneg ya. Hidup dia sendiri aja belum bener, tapi dia ngebanding-bandingin orang lain. Ini kalo enggak kurang kerjaan, sih namanya shallow-minded ya. Karena udah kesel banget di kantor ketemu cowok-cowok gak berotak gini, gw confront akhirnya via whatsapp. Gw panjang lebar keluarin semua isi perut gw yang nyinyir ini yang intinya bilang gw gak suka sama omongan dia.

Like expected, dia ngomong minta maaf, dan menjelaskan bahwa “semakin deket pertemanan, maka semakin bebas becandaan, semakin bebas saling cerita”. Lalu gw bilang gini. Jelas konsep pertemenan kita berbeda. Karena bagi gw “semakin deket pertemenan, gw akan semakin menghargai orangnya. Gw akan semakin nyemangatin dia struggling ngejalanin hidup, bukan malah ikut-ikutan society ngasih pressure-pressure yang gak perlu. Gw akan semakin menerima dia apa adanya baik itu dari fisiknya maupun pilihan hidup dia as long as gak nyakitin dirinya sendiri. Gw akan ngedukung dia jadi diri dia apa adanya”.

Ini cowok emang kocak sih. Karena walau dia ngatain gw gitu, tetep aja gw jadi orang pertama yang dia cari kalau ada apa-apa. Tetap aja gw jadi orang yang paling sering dia sebut di status dia di twitter (selain istrinya tentu). Emang sih “beauty gets attention, but personality wins the heart”. Cuma tetap aja it was direspectful untuk ngatain orang dari fisik. Dan shame on them is gak bisa mengapresiasi keindahan ciptaan Tuhan. Dan yang akhirnya mereka disrespect adalah Tuhan itu sendiri sebagai pencipta makhluk manusia.

Yah, gimana lagi. Gw hidup di tengah-tengah maskulinitas, dan laki-laki shallow-minded. Mungkin ini dia kenapa gw masih single sampe sekarang, karena susah banget nemuin cowok perfect ya. Tapi gw berterima kasih sama mereka sih. Jadi gw belajar, dan gw tambah strong. Mereka udah ngasih amunisi buat gw, dan para perempuan di sekitar gw. Tinggal mereka tunggu aja waktu dimana bom akan meledak dan menghancurkan mereka

My mom always tells all family problems that was made by my father and put the burdens on me to solve all those. She never realized that I have my own problems too in my daily life. It leaves me and my sister with no choice other than to be strong in the family

X-Men: Days of Future Past vs The Edge of Tomorrow

It’s been a long time since I write a movie review here. But here we go again.

I watched two movies in this week, a rare thing for me even to go to cinema. X-Men 2014 (to make it short) and The Edge of Tomorrow share the same red-line of story: repeating the past to have different future as the outcome. I don’t why Hollywood like to repeat the past lately.

Anyway, I honestly used to underestimate The Edge of Tommorrow because I thought is just copying the movie “Source Code”, just with different enemy. The enemy in Source Code is bomber, while the enemy in The Edge of Tomorrow is alien. I was more curious with X-Men because one said that is a 10-out-of-10 movie. But after I watched those two movies, I think that The Edge of Tomorrow is better than X-Men.

X-Men movie was flawless. It is hard to create scenario about past and future story that has to be connected and make sense. X-Men movie successfully present that. But the plot run so slow. And I was expecting more action scene.

While The Edge of Tomorrow offers us faster and different plots of story (because the story keeps repeating with different version) and of course more action scenes with better (I think) visual effect. Because in one scene of X-Men movie, it was obvious that it was made on the studio not in the real life (the scene where some characters were in the car. I forget exactly which). The Edge of tomorrow provides us with some hardcore action scene. You know: fight, fire, bomb, kill, etc etc, those things which represent the type of movie I like most.

I dont know whether it was because of two-shot of espresso I was having when watching it, but The Edge of Tomorrow made me drown in its story