I’m gonna miss you, but we’re gonna be fine
After 1 years and 8 months, it’s time for me to move from my current job at President’s Delivery Unit for Development Monitoring and Oversight.
It was a very respectful job. All people will be disinclined when hearing you are from President’s Unit. Not to mention that the salary here is high. Seems fun. But, every workplace has its own pros and cons.
Here in this office, I do the things that are not passion. I do the new things that I never did before. And I do the dirty works.
Well, I am very good at detail and dirty works as I am very detail person. But when u do the dirty things that are not your true passion, and not getting appropriate appreciation, you will be sick of it.
Here in this office, I meet a lot of cocky people who think they are coolest person in the room.
Here in this office, I work with lazy-ass people who think they already do their best.
Here in this office, I deal with citizens who think only what the nation could give to them and not what they could give to the nation.
Here in this office, I met and have to deal with shallow-minded perverts men who can’t appreciate beauty of Gods creature.
Here in this office, they don’t recognize my work at all. Yes they said they do, but they actually don’t.
Here in this office, I’m getting betrayed for the reason that I still don’t know. And that’s what hurt most.
Here in this office, I can’t give my 100%. I can’t explore my potential. And I can’t learn new knowledge that I want to learn.
But over all that,
From this office, I get so much money to keep my family (mom, dad, and sister) alive.
From this office, I learn how to “sacrifice” to help others.
From this office, I get the everyday access to Presidential Palace, to capture some photos, to get to know palace life, to buy official palace souvenirs that you can’t get in other places, or simply for lunch at palace canteen.
From this office, I get to know how big and complicated Indonesia is. I now get better understanding about my own country.
From this office, I learn about integrity when you are high-rank public officer in your country.
From this office, I got to hear more stories about how beautiful Indonesia is and encourage me to explore this country. And my travelling level raises to the more extreme level.
From this office I learn how to move on and loving someone unconditionally. Eventhough you get hurts most of the time.
On the top of all that, I get to know so many wonderful people and know about friendship from them.
Now it’s time for me to go because my contract in this office ends on 31st August 2014. I find trouble mostly in leaving these last people. Those last people are the ones who makes this office become my comfort zone. They’re the people who make me always wanna stay. They are my wonderwall.
I have to detach step by step from this office. I find returning back my ID and other office equipment very hard. But the fact that those last people still accept me no matter who I really am, and the fact that I can always go back to them whenever I need them makes me relieve. Plus, we love travelling anyway so there’s always reasons for us to be together.
Well, sometimes you know something is not good but it becomes your comfort zone so you just go with the flow.
Sometimes you know that in the end you will leave something, but you don’t like that fact so you just enjoy the moment. Until the reality slap you in the face and you really have to move.
Its never easy to break up, in any context. Especially if you have problem with detachment.
But I have my childhood dreams that need to be pursued again after more than one year wander around in different path. I have to go back to live my dreams into reality.
I’m gonna miss you. But we’re gonna be fine. Because nothing last forever.